by Veronica Genta

When life puts you in an uncomfortable place, when it pushes you out of your comfort zone, it's inevitable to ask yourself: Why is this happening to me? What do I do now?

Most middle- and certainly lower-class Latinos live paycheck to paycheck. This means that what we earn is barely enough to cover the basics, and that there's rarely anything left to save. We live in a constant cycle of effort and survival, where stopping to reflect seems like a luxury.

I worked for ten years in a Waldorf school, an experience that led me to explore very profound spaces of being human through Rudolf Steiner's philosophy of anthroposophy. It was a path of transformation and self-knowledge that planted in me a different perspective on life and pain.

From a very young age, I felt profound answers to the great questions of existence. I always had an open heart, a magnetic ability to listen to those who needed an ear. I think this developed as a consequence of my own experience with illness. Since I was four years old, I've lived with pain, pain from a congenital spinal deformation which has accompanied me my entire life. This search for meaning in the face of suffering allowed me to develop a special sensitivity.

From an astrological perspective, I carry the wound of Chiron in my ascendant, a destiny I couldn't escape. The awareness of pain—both physical and emotional—came to me very early. And with it, also spiritual awareness, the question of the purpose of that pain.

In my adolescence I had two surgeries on my spine for the pain. The second operation marked a before and after. It filled me with trauma, with images so powerful that even today, I find it hard to name them. I remember feeling my faith shatter into a thousand pieces. I prayed with dedication, with devotion. Not only did I pray, but also my family and those around me prayed. But the miracle didn't come. The pain—in my body and soul—was so great that one day, in rage and tears, I tore up all my holy cards, all my prayers. I complained to God, to Jesus, and to all his saints. I felt deeply deceived.

Since I realized that I can no longer blame my parents for what they did or didn't do in raising me, I began to seek forgiveness. But what is forgiveness? And what is guilt? Sometimes I feel like they're twin brothers: for one to exist, the other must also exist. And it's in that tension that my childhood wound slowly begins to open. But this time it opens from a different place, from a different perspective, even though I remind myself that it's not yet fully resolved. Will it ever be resolved?

Two years ago, I became interested in the process of Family Constellations, and since then, I've been surprised to see how, little by little, everything has begun to fall into place. Slowly, yes, but it is falling into place. It's like letting go of ways that weren't my own, of inherited roles, of other people's expectations. Less guilt, more acceptance. More respect for what I've experienced, just as it was.

I no longer expect a miracle. I've understood that the true miracle is life itself. It's our experiences, our wounds, our encounters. It's letting go of the need to judge what I've experienced as good or bad, right or wrong. I no longer ask myself, "What if I had done this or that?" What was, was. And that's fine. The Argentinians say, llata.

Today, from a different place, I understand that those moments of rupture were also doors. Doors inward. Toward my soul. Because when life makes you uncomfortable, it also invites you. Sometimes, what seems like a fall is, in reality, an initiation.

Crisálida wants to walk alongside you on the journey of constant development, where we rediscover ourselves as beings with unlimited potential. Art, movement and textures guide us on this path; taking us by the hand towards the encounter with our destiny and reminding us that we are, in essence, creative beings.

Casa Crisálida is a space where we facilitate a profound transformation, where each of us brings a unique purpose and a gift to share with humanity. Through the growth of our capacities, we can bring the new to life and embrace true freedom.

Curative Pedagogy
Social Therapy
Akashic Records Reading
Family Constellations
Therapeutic Tarot Readings (and Workshops)

Contact us: veronicagenta@gmail.com  +52 415 117 8436  Instagram

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Veronica Genta, tarot reader and astrologer, with a strong background in theatre, has built a deep bond with the Mapuche culture of Chile, exploring their cosmovision through textile art, medicinal plants and traditional dances.

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